...she was so humble of heart and so gentle that her tenderness
for others and her disregard for herself and her own troubles
blended in a smile which, unlike those seen on the majority
of human faces, bore no trace of irony save for herself, while
for all of us kisses seemed to spring from her eyes, which could not
look upon those she loved without seeming to bestow upon
them passionate caresses.
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.13
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
"It's a funny thing, now; I very often think of my poor wife, but
I cannot think of her for long at a time."
"Often, but a little at a time, like poor old Swann," became one of my
grandfather's favourite sayings...
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.18
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
"The fault I find with our journalism is that it forces
us to take an interest in some fresh triviality or
other every day, whereas only three or four books in a
lifetime give us anything that is of real importance." (Swann)
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.33
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
I drink a second mouthful, in which I find nothing
more than in the first, then a third, which gives me rather
less than the second. It is time to stop; the potion is losing
its virtue. It is plain that the truth I am seeking lies
not in the cup but in myself. The drink has called it into
being, but does not know it, and can only repeat indefinitely,
with a progressive diminution of strength, the same message which
I cannot interpret, though I hope at least to be able to
call it forth again and to find it there presently,
intact and at my disposal, for my final enlightment.
I put down the cup and examine my own mind.
it alone can discover the truth. But how? What an abyss
of uncertainty, whenever the mind feels overtaken by itself;
when it, the seeker, is at the same time the dark region
through which it must go seeking and where all its
equipment will avail it nothing.
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.61
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
M. Vinteuil ... carried politeness and consideration for others to
such scrupulous lengths, always putting himself in their place,
that he was afraid of boring them, or of appearing
egotistical, if he carried out or even allowed them to suspect
what were his own desires.
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.157
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
I came to recognize that, apart from her own kinsfolk, the sufferings
of humanity inspired in her a pity which increased in direct ratio to
the distance separating the sufferers from herself.
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.171
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
And in an attitude that was doubtless habitual to her, one which she
knew to be apropriate to such moments and was careful not to forget to
assume, she seemed to need all her strength to hold her face back, as
though some invisible force were drawing it towards Swann's. And it was
Swann who, before she allowed it, as though in spite of herself, to
fall upon his lips, held it back for a moment longer, at a little
distance, between his hands. He had wanted to leave time for his mind to
catch up with him, to recognize the dream which it had so long
cherished and to assist at its realization, like a relative invited as
a spectator when a prize is given to a child of whom she has been
especially fond. Perhaps, too, he was fixing upon the face of an
Odette not yet possessed, nor even kissed by him, which he was seeing
for the last time, the comprehensive gaze with which, on the day of
his departure, a traveler hopes to bear away with him in memory a
landscape he is leaving for ever.
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.330-331
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
But he was so shy in approaching her that, after this evening which had
begun by his arranging her cattleyas and had ended in her complete
surrender, whether from fear of offending her, or from reluctance to
appear retrospectively to have lied, or perhaps because he lacked the
audacity to formulate a more urgent requirement than this (which could
always be repeated, since it had not annoyed her on the first
occasion), he resorted to the same pretext on the following days. If
she had cattleyas pinned to her bodice, he would say: "It's most
unfortunate; the cattleyas don't need tucking in this evening; they've
not been disturbed as they were the other night. I think, though, that
this one isn't quite straight. May I see if they have more scent than
the others?" Or else, if she had none: "Oh! no cattleyas this evening;
then there's no chance of my indulging in my little rearrangements."
So that for some time there was no change in the procedure which he had
followed on that first evening, starting with the fumblings with
fingers and lips at Odette's bosom, and it was thus that his caresses
still began. And long afterwords, when the rearrangement (or,
rather, the ritual pretence of a rearrangement) of her cattleyas had
quite fallen into desuetude, the metaphor "Do a cattleya," transmuted
into a simple verb which they would employ without thinking when they
wished to refer to the act of physical possesion (in which,
paradoxically, the possessor possesses nothing), survived to
commemorate in their vocabulary the long-forgotten custom from which it
sprang. And perhaps this particular manner of saying "to make love"
did not mean exactly the same thing as its synonyms. However jaded we
may be about women, however much we may regard the possession of the
most divergent types as a repetitive and predictable experience, it
none the less becomes a fresh and stimulating pleasure if the women
concerned are -- or are thought by us to be -- so difficult as to
oblige us to make it spring from some unrehearsed incident in our
relations with them, as had originally been for Swann the arrangement
of the cattleyas. He tremblingly hoped, that evening (but Odette, he
told himself, if she was deceived by his stratagem, could not guess his
intention), that it was the possession of this woman that would emerge
for him from their large mauve petals; and the pleasure which he had
already felt and which Odette tolerated, he thought, perhaps only
because she had not recognised it, seemed to him for that reason -- as
it might have seemed to the first man when he enjoyed it amid the
flowers of the earthly paradise -- a pleasure which had never before
existed, which he was striving now to create, a pleasure -- as the
special name he gave it was to certify -- entirely individual and new.
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.331-332
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
Other people as a rule mean so little to us that, when we have invested
one of them with the power to cause us so much suffering or happiness,
that person seems at once to belong to a different universe, is
surrounded with poetry, makes of one's life a sort of stirring arena in
which he or she will be more or less close to one.
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.334
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
He was well aware that his love was something that did not correspond
to anything outside itself, verifiable by others besides him; he
realised that Odette's qualities were not such as to justify his
setting so high a value on the hours he spent in her company. And
often, when the cold government of reason stood unchallenged in his
mind, he would readily have ceased to sacrifice so many of his
intellectual and social interests to this imaginary pleasure. But the
little phrase [from Vinteuil's sonata], as soon as it struck his ear,
had the power to liberate in him the space that was needed to contain
it; the proportions of Swann's soul were altered; a margin was left
for an enjoyment that corresponded no more than his love for Odette to
any external object and yet was not, like his enjoyment of that love,
purely individual, but assumed for him a sort of reality superior to
that of concrete things.
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.335
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
And since he sought in the little phrase for a meaning to which
his intelligence could not descend, with what a strange frenzy
of intoxication did he strip bare his innermost soul of the
whole armour of reason and make it pass unattended through
the dark filter of sound!
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.336-337
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
Besides, having allowed the intellectual beliefs of his
youth to languish, and his man-of-the-world scepticism
having permeated them without his being aware of it, he
felt (or at least he had felt for so long that he had fallen
into the habit of saying) that the objects we admire have
no absolute value in themselves, that the whole thing is a
matter of period and class, is no more that a series of fashions,
the most vulgar of which are worth just as much as those which
are regarded as the most refined.
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.350
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
...Cottard, having occasion to leave the room for a moment,
murmured a witty euphemism which he had recently acquired
and repeated now whenever he had to go to the place in
question: "I must just go and see the Duc d'Aumale for a
minute"....
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.373
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
And the locks of his reddish hair, crinkled by nature but glued to his
head by brilliantine, were treated broadly as they are in that Greek
sculpture which the Mantuan painter never ceased to study, and which,
if in its creator's purpose it represents but man, manages at least to
extract from man's simple outlines such a variety of richness,
borrowed, as it were, from the whole of animate nature, that a head of
hair, by the glossy undulation and beak-like points of its curls, or in
the superimposition of the florid triple diadem of its tresses, can
suggest at once a bunch of seaweed, a brood of fledgling doves, a bed
of hyacinths and a coil of snakes.
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.461
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)
And with the old, intermittent caddishness which reappeared in him
when he was no longer unhappy and his moral standards dropped
accordingly, he exclaimed to himself: "To think that I've wasted years
of my life, that I've longed to die, that I've experienced my greatest
love, for a woman who didn't appeal to me, who wasn't even my type!"
-- Marcel Proust. Swann's Way (1913) p.543
(tr. C. K. Scott Moncrieff and Terence Kilmartin
revised by D. J. Enright -- 1992)